Sunday, December 09, 2007

Need for a sabbath

First of all I want to thank all who commented on my last post: Terri, Desiree, Susan, Merelyme, and Isabella. So good to hear from all of you. And a big welcome to you, Isabella.

Today I feel a great need for a sabbath day. Although I'm doing much better mood-wise than I did last year, the pressures of the season have a way of grating on the nerves. Yesterday we went to a big family gathering and I came home feeling emotionally exhausted. I so look forward to Pastor Don's sermon today. I so long to once more reflect on what this season is all about. I so long for a day of peace.

We still don't have any decorations up at our house. I still haven't sat down to figure out whether I know what I'm going to give to all the people I want to buy for. I still have to get the Christmas cards done.

But today I'm going to have a day all for me - doing only what I feel like doing - not doing anything that truly needs to be done. Tomorrow I will carry on with the must-do's.

I don't feel truly depressed, yet there are indicators that suggest things are not the way they should be with me. There are too many messes around the house that bother me - small messes, yet messes I'm having trouble clearing away. I want to, but somehow I can't bring myself to actually do it. Ever felt that way?

I long for Living Room this Friday. We'll talk about how Christmas is affecting all of us this year. I know I won't be the only person having troubles.

This morning, before I start my official sabbath day (though please don't think I'm legalistic about this sabbath thing), I think I will make a list of all the things I'll need to do in these two weeks before Christmas. I know what will happen is that things won't look nearly as over-whelming as they seem to be. ...And I will try to keep lots of time for me in the plans - time to withdraw from the busyness - time to read and draw and play.


Dream Writer said...

Marja - I thought that you were doing OK with the season. Especially someone like you who is very spiritual and religious and what this holiday represents.

What if you just buy those cards in a box and mail those? Add a little touch by putting white glitter in each card as snow...something simple, but festive.

Hope you are feeling well soon. Hang in will find yourself enjoying the holidays soon :)

marja said...

Thanks for your concern Dream. But please don't think I'm all that bad. I don't truly feel down - just having trouble getting going - a bit in need of quiet times. I do like my quiet to-myself times and they're harder to come by during this busy season.

My husband is making the cards now, so that's good. I might post a picture of it.

Please don't worry about me. I'm not worried.

Merelyme said...

i like your ideas. it is so important to have some relaxation and quiet time. the holidays can get quite stressful.

bipolar_girl said...

You definitely need the break, Marja. take care