It takes great effort trying to live with good self-esteem when the disorder we have is so stigmatized. It's so utterly unfair that we, who, through no fault of our own, have a disease and have to hide it and live in shame. If you've read some of my earlier posts you will know how angry I am about this.
But what if we were to not feel so ashamed about it? What if we were to recognize how wrong society is about us and say to ourselves, "to hell with them". We know we're ok people.
The tough thing is that, when a person needs to keep something like this secret, it breeds a feeling of shame within himself. How can we possibly win?
I pray that there will be a day when society will be better educated and understanding of what mental illnesses truly are, diseases that happens to affect one of the organs of our body. And it just happens that this organ controls thinking and feelings.
I found a quote recently - don't know who wrote it but thought someone might be inspired by it:
"If anyone speaks badly of you, live so that none will believe it."
In my own life, I began speaking out about my bipolar disorder ten years ago. I think that writing about it and having a book out helped people respect me. If there are any who think I'm strange because of it, I don't notice it. This has put me at an advantage in many ways. I feel absolutely no shame. I only talk about my disorder when there's a reason for doing so. But it has become more and more my life's work to raise awareness. It is my passion.
I don't know and don't care if people are speaking badly of me. Maybe some do. But I stubbornly live, being the person God made me to be - myself.
How I wish this would be possible for everyone who has to live with bipolar disorder!
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Reading this almost made me cry. I've done just the opposite as you. I used to be very open & honest but because of people being judgemental or those who would quit talking to me suddenly, I no longer tell people I meet in person that I'm bipolar.
I love that quote.
If people realized that bipolar disorder was no different than epilepsy or alzheimers, perhaps they wouldn't see us as such social freaks.
I do find it interesting that you are okay with yourself, yet you are so angry with society. I think that's a good anger because there are people with our illness who aren't okay with themselves, such as myself. We really need someone like you who will put a normal face to this disease.
Thank you
My opinion - people lack knowledge and are not interested in wanting to know more. But hell or high water if it happened to them...LOOK OUT!
What I have learned in my life is that if they want to judge who needs them...I know who my true friends are.
I look up to you more than oyu know...... this journey has only recently begun for me but I wanna have you around as long as I can
crap I wish I still lived in burnaby
i was near burnaby lake park....
i havent been having the best days lately but i know i'll be able to communicate better when I snap out!!
thanks Marja! (Btw are you from norwegian decent?)
Thank you, jane, dobro, Terri, Kevin, and Sarah for all your remarks. I truly appreciated all of them.
Sarah, I wish you were here as well. And my name is Dutch.
Kevin, It seems to me that my courage to speak out began after I started following Christ. Knowing that God loves me, no matter what, and having the support of my church family has done much for me. But it all happened gradually, as my faith matured.
well done but surely there are times when people talking about you does get to you ?
Jumpinginpuddles: I'm never aware of people talking about me. I know some of my friends do, but only with a sense of concern if they see I'm heading in the wrong direction. That makes me feel cared for.
The thing is, I'm 60 and have accomplished a fair amount with my life. If I sense that some people are talking about me, that really does not matter to me at all. As they get to know me better, they will treat me with respect. I "live so that none will believe" what they hear about me.
The important thing is to believe in yourself, stand up straight, and face the wind. With time a person can learn to do that. (And a lot of time has gone by for me. Did I mention I turned 60 this year? So proud of that.)
Amen Marja! At 40 I feel the same way!!!
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