Wednesday, November 21, 2007

I've gone and hit a low

Well, what's been threatening for a while and what I kept trying to push away has come upon me. I have to admit that I'm into a bit of a depression. Not a bad one so far - and I pray that this will not become a bad one. I'm determined not to let that happen. Please, God, don't let that happen.

I can see now that the anxiety I've been feeling so much in recent days is just part of depression. It's just part of negative thinking.

So...I must make some plans to help me cope with this. Perhaps I can lift myself out quickly - if lifting myself out is at all possible. I have to remember, though, that I need to trust God and not think that I have to do it all by myself.

So...what can I do to stay out of the pit?
  • I'll make an appointment with my psychiatrist and get started on some prozac. I've never had trouble with this pushing me into mania, so I trust it.
  • I'll go to the gym or walk daily.
  • I'll talk to my best friends daily, explaining to them why I need to do that right now.
  • I'll give myself some manageable goals for each day.
  • I'll keep puttering with pictures as much as I can.
  • I'll write "Dear God" entries in my journal, telling God about what I'm going through and asking for his help.
  • I'll write down whatever things help me most so that I can share them later with Living Room members.
  • I'll try to bring brightness into my days by doing things that help other people.
  • I'll read and meditate on the Psalms.
  • I'll try to write Psalms, first expressing my pain, then praising God.
  • I'll remember that God loves me and that my friends love me and I will thank God for that.
Please, God, I pray, help this not become too bad. Help me to be well for Christmas.


Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Happy Thanksgiving Day Marja. I hope you are doing well. God bless you and your family. Have a blessed and wonderful Thanksgiving Day.

Syd said...

Marja, I'm sorry to hear that you are not feeling well, but I pray that you will be better soon. It sounds like you have an excellent self-care plan, which is crucial to keeping the depression from becoming overwhelming.

I know from you blog that you have a lot of things to give thanks for on Thanksgiving Day and I know that there are a lot of people, both readers of your blog and people who have been and will be helped by Living Room that are thankful for YOU as well.


SBWRITES said...

Dear Marja,
All good ideas to help lift you out of a depression. Personally, I'm big on the medication (If you've got something that works, it can help you switch moods quickly) and the exercise--it works for me.

My latest technique, brainswitching, also works for me. Whenever I think I'm feeling low, I don't use the word "depressed" and don't worry about being depressed.

Rather I come up with a childhood word, for me it's
Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious, from the film Mary Poppins. It makes me smile and doesn't allow the brain kindling to happen.

Prayers and hugs to you from Los Angeles.


marja said...

Thank you Mel, Syd, and Susan for your kindness and encouragement. I like your brainswitching idea Susan and have a bit of a thought on that, which I will blog about.