Wednesday, March 28, 2007

A new day

Although the last couple of days were a struggle, today began well and continues going well. I had my company and we had a good time talking about our lives. She did her cross-stitching while I knitted a dishcloth. There is something very natural and comfortable about two women visiting while doing handwork...more relaxing than sitting across from each other with nothing to do but talk. Later her husband and my husband joined us for lunch.

It may seem weird to say, but we are so fortunate to have a new day open up to us after each night of sleep. A new opportunity to start afresh. A rested body and mind - a healthier mental state.

Last night - such a short time ago - I was terribly tired and miserable. I meditated on Jesus' words from Matthew 11:28. I bathed my mind in the words: "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdend, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." After some time, I did feel rested. And with this rest came peace of mind.

And now, as we near the end of the day, I am thankful to have felt so normal - so undepressed. I am thankful for my time with friends and the energy to be a good hostess.

Today's visitor provided me with another candle. Tomorrow I light another one. My mother is coming to spend a couple of nights with us. It will be stressful but I will try to make the time an enjoyable one for her. I'll try to relax.


Sarah said...

Marja I know you'll hate me for saying this but God, above all wants us to love our parents no matter how difficult they are...

Think about the purpose of a family and how much you are because of them:)

I've missed you in my blog, I'm travelling tomorrow to Peru..Lots of pics when I get back.

In HIm,

marja said...

Hey Sarah! Thank you for your comment. You should know, though, that my mom's visit being stressful doesn't mean I don't love her. I get stressed with house guests, no matter who it is - esp the way I'm feeling now...and my mom is not an easy person to be around, no matter how much I love her.

I have visited your blog, just haven't been too "talkative" lately, so haven't left comments.

Have a good time in Peru.

Amateur Dancer said...

hi marja,

i am just starting to read blogs i am way behind.

are you in a depressed cycle?

i know several people who are, right now.

which is so odd, because, i always hear about spring mania, and how that is predominant.

but, i have a very close friend w/ bipolar who is in deep depression and know a few others too.

i hope you are alright....

rest when you can, during this time.

i hope that the visit does not exhaust you too much.


Dream Writer said...

I could relate Marja about visits and all...I get stressed, too :)

Sounds like you are doing rather well.

Hope you stay happy! Its SPRING!