Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Weary and empty

I feel that I've poured myself out in every which way I could over the past while. I've poured myself into creating photographic items, poured myself into Living Room, poured myself into the support of people in trouble, poured myself and everything I had into the showing of my work and the party. I've had two sleeps since the party and I still feel tired. Worn out.

I can see that I'm going to have to work at not crashing. This morning I did not feel I could do anything, other than the laundry. Then I caught myself just sitting and thinking, about nothing much in particular. It was a dangerous place to be. If I let that happen for too long I might very well find myself caught in depression. It has happened many times like that before.

So I decided to go to Curves for a workout. It took some doing to get me out the door, but eventually I did go. It did me a world of good.

In the afternoon I had a couple of appointments and in the evening I visited a friend in hospital. I got through the day fine.

I think I'll try to get to Curves every day for the next while until I've passed the danger point.

Some exciting news is that Living Room is going to have a 4 foot high 8 foot wide poster at the Into the Light: Transforming Mental Health in Canada conference at the end of November. We will have a chance to interact with conference attendees and tell them about Living Room.

I'm awaiting delivery of a book I very much need to read right now: Leading on Empty by Wayne Cordero. I'm ready for a good serious read right about now. Actually, it's about renewing your passion. I don't think I've lost that, yet it would be a good read, I'm sure.

6 comments:

bipolar_girl said...

Hi Marja! I miss you! You've been quite busy my friend. I'm just so glad that there are no major relapses or mood swings that you are experiencing. You're such a blessing to everyone. I love you! Take care always

marja said...

Hi Desiree. So good to hear from you. Every once in awhile I check your site, but you haven't written anything for a very long time. How are you doing?

You take care as well, eh?

marja

Writing Works said...

Hi!

Sounds like you have been quite busy! Wow!

As you know, I have moved. However, my desire to start Living Room remains the same. I am starting preparations to get one going here. I am excited!

marja said...

Hi Writing Works,

So exciting that you're wanting to start a Living Room group. Could you email me please at marja@livingroomsupport.org?

marja

shawnalyne said...

Praying for you to get filled back up quickly!

marja said...

Thank you for your prayers, Shawnalyne. Crazy how quickly you can get afraid though, eh? I'm downright afraid and know I need to trust in God, and not feel that way.

- marja