Friday, December 10, 2010

You hem me in

Such a comfort it was this morning to read Psalm 139. Isn't it neat how reading scripture will affect you in different ways each time you read? Depending on where you are emotionally?

I'm thankful this morning that I feel like tidying the house. I really feel like doing things. Not with a lot of energy or a lot of joy, but I want to have things in hand so I can continue on with the project that is giving me a sense of purpose right now - the cookbook project. That's what I'm hanging onto right now.

...and it's high time I prepared our house for Christmas. I need to do some decorating - get in the spirit.

I love Psalm 139 - where David says:
Where can I go from you Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

Yeah, off and on lately, I've been making my bed in the depths. But this Psalm promises that He is there with me. I can rest in that assurance.

It's a Living Room day today. I've turned over the leadership to my co-facilitator until I'm feeling stronger. Right now I feel I need to be supported and don't feel as strong about giving support. So glad I have someone in place to take over that role.

I will focus on doing the things I feel I can best do. Putter around the house. Try to make Christmas happen as well as I can. One day at a time. Just very thankful that I feel up to things today. Very thankful to know that God is with me - through all my ups and downs.

4 comments:

Hellen said...

The Psalms are such an awesome place to go for encouragement aren't they? And a great place to be able to be 'real' in the midst of it all. You know, each time that I see the name of your blog I'm reminded of another verse in the Psalms.

"Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground." – (Psalm 143:10)

In my Bible I've written 'roller coaster' beside the words 'level ground.' as this verse because my prayer when my life was feeling more roller coastish! :)

marja said...

Yes, Hellen, the Psalms ARE awesome. I don't know what I'd do without them, esp when I'm having a rough time. I'm so grateful for them.

Jane said...

I'm really glad you're able to take some time off of Living Room. Sometimes we just need some time to recoup. Especially leaders. We need our leaders to feels supported and strong and not be feeling burned out or pressured. I'm really glad you see the value in taking care of your needs :) I appreciate the post today and the psalm you shared.

marja said...

Hi Jane, Yes, it's good to have a co-facilitator who can take over for me. Though you know, it was hard letting go and I do look forward to getting back to it. I look forward to having my moods back in control.